I have tried my very best.

when i know bout the news

i was so stunned

stunned like hell

n until now

i can't accept it

maybe if you ask anyone else

they will feel the same

trust me.

i tried to visit u

coz whatever it is, 

u r still my familia

i tried to visit u..n yes i did.

but i can't look at your face as usual

i started to think of what u have done

oh Allah, give me strength to face this BIG TEST.

oh GOD

how can i express my feelings

i just can't see her face

can't even here her name

hurm..

just imagine

i know this thing before my last paper for trial

how can i sit for my exam after knowing all those

it keep walking in my mind

i tried to avoid from thinking

but i can't

so the result was

i can't do well in my accounts

for the first time i got negative when i tried to balance the account

oh Allah

this is really a SUPER DUPER BIG TEST for all of us

i hope u can let us cool down

n give us strength

we need strength

REALLY.

to u :

understood?